Monthly Archives: October 2005

Your Dad

Chloe misses her dad, my ex-roommate, Dustin. He moved most of his belongings out of the apartment yesterday but because he does not yet have utilities at his new apartment, he doesn’t want to bring Chloe there. She stays here while he sleeps at his girlfriend’s house. It’s just me and the dog here.

Have you ever seen consternation in a dog’s face? Chloe seems concerned. She stands and looks at the empty room that was Dustin’s and hers. She stands in the doorway staring, like she’s looking at a pile of cinder blocks after a tornado swept away her double-wide that used to sit upon them.

Chloe understands an array of words but she doesn’t know what “Dustin” means. Instead, she has come to know him as “your dad.” Come see your dad. Go see your dad. Where is your dad? Go bite your dad on the nuts. She understands “your dad” to mean Dustin.

It has probably been more than twenty-four hours since Chloe saw her dad. Another twenty-four hours might pass before she sees him again. Looking at her now, it seems that every hour that passes convinces Chloe that she will never see her dad again, that she’s my dog now, that I’m now “your dad.”

I frequently reassure Chloe that her dad is coming to pick her up and take her to a wonderful new house, a place with a backyard many times larger than the porch where she spends her days now. I tell her, “Your dad loves you and he’s coming to get you in a day or two.” I walk her and play with her and let her sleep in my bedroom–my room was always off limits before–and I tell her all about her dad’s new place.

Her ears perk up when I say “your dad.” Perky with hope, she still doesn’t know for sure he’s coming back for her. What would you think?

New Stuff

I have two tickets to see Ben Folds in Austin on November 20. I paid dearly for them.

I have a new scooter, a 2005 Aprilia Rally, that I enjoy riding. The price was right. [photo]

I have a Victorinox laptop backpack so I can use wifi downtown. It wan’t the most expensive but it was the best.

The allure of a list

  • People like reading lists.
  • This phenomenon might be explained somewhere.
  • I have never read any such explanation.
  • I have a few ideas of my own:
    • Nested lists keep things tidy.
    • It’s easier to keep your place.
    • Bullets are aesthetically pleasing.
    • Lists are linear, evoking a garden path.
    • Paragraphs are parallel-linear, evoking mowing a lawn.
  • My ideas could be more or less valuable than yours.
  • Value is the most relative of all concepts.
  • It would not be hard to list some examples.
  • I’ll leave that to your imagination.
  • I was writing about why lists are better than paragraphs.
  • Now I will continue.
    • Lists can be numbered. For example:
      1. This list.
      2. Directions.
      3. Recipes.
      4. Rankings.
      5. One, two, three o’clock, four o’clock rock.
      6. There is no item 6.
  • Where was I?
  • Oh, yes: spouting praise for lists.
  • Perhaps paragraphs aren’t such a good idea.
  • What if every sentence was a list item?
  • I think that would be bad for novels.
  • (That reminds me, I should read a novel.)
  • Have I made my point?

Looking forward to

  • Going to sleep tonight
  • Waking up tomorrow morning
  • Having two eggs the way I like them, “over crispy”
  • Stretching
  • Showering
  • Stretching more
  • Riding my bike a few miles
  • Working wherever there’s wifi, probably Gelato’s
  • Enjoying the food there
  • Riding home after a long day of good work
  • Showering, swimming and stretching
  • Sitting down at my desk
  • Enjoying the view
  • Working some more if I’m inspired
  • Going to bed
  • Varying and repeating that sequence every day
  • Helping my roommates move out
  • Living alone
  • Learning the bus routes in my neighborhood
  • Renting a car every now and then
  • Making new friends around town
  • Trying to find old friends I lost along the way
  • Playing my poor, neglected guitar
  • Finding a roommate or another place to live
  • Making lots of people happy with my work
  • Getting people together
  • Buying a new game
  • Trying a new city
  • Imagining living abroad
  • Learning languages
  • Sailing
  • Tasting fine foods
  • Making another list